What Anxiety Actually Is, Because Its More Than Just Worrying

byKirsten Corley

Anxiety is the restless nights of sleep, as you toss and turn. Its your brain never being able to shut off. Its the thoughts you over-think before bedtime and all of your worst fears become a reality in dreams and nightmares.

Its waking up tired even though your day just started.

Anxiety is learning how to function with sleep deprivation because it took you until 2 am to shut your eyes.

Its every text you wonder how do I word this properly? Its a double or triple text in case you messed up. Anxiety is answering texts embarrassingly fast.

Anxiety is the time you spend waiting for an answer as a scenario plays out in your mind of what they could be thinking or are they mad?

Anxiety Is An Unanswered Text That Kills You Inside

even though you tell yourself, maybe theyre busy or will answer later.

Anxiety is that critical voice that says maybe theyre deliberately ignoring you. Its believing every negative scenario you can come up with.

Anxiety is waiting. It always feels like youre waiting.

Its the inaccurate conclusions drawn as your mind takes off and you have no choice but to follow its destructive lead.

Anxiety is apologizing for things that dont even require the words, Im sorry.

Anxiety is self-doubt and a lack of confidence both in you, yourself and those around you.

Anxiety is being hyper aware of everyone and everything. So much so, you can tell if theres a shift in someone merely by their tone or word choice.

Anxiety is ruining relationships before they even begin. It tells you, youre wrong, they dont like you, theyre going to leave. Then you jump to conclusions and ruin it.

Anxiety is a constant state of worrying and panicking and being on the edge. Its irrational fears.

Its Thinking Too Much, Its Caring Too Much. Because The Root Of People With Anxiety Is Caring.

Its sweaty palms and a racing heart. But on the outside, no one can see it. You appear calm and at ease and smiling but underneath is anything but that.

Anxiety is the art of deception for people who dont know you. And for the people who do, its a constant stream of phrases like, dont worry or youre overthinking this or relax. Its friends listening to these conclusions youve drawn and not really understanding how you got there. But theyre there trying to support you, as things go from bad to worse in your mind.

Anxiety Is Wanting To Fix Something That Isnt Even A Problem.

Its the stream of questions that make you doubt yourself.

Did I lock the door before I left?


Did I turn off the stove?

Is the straightener still on?

Its turning back around just to double check.

Anxiety is the uneasiness at a party because you think all eyes are on you and no one wants you there. Anxiety is that extra shot you take and it seems like youre finally relaxing. Until you wake up the next day hungover, full of regret and wondering what you said to who and do you owe them an apology?

Anxiety is the overcompensating and trying too hard to please people.

Anxiety is being everywhere on time because the thought of being late would put you over the edge.

Anxiety is the fear of failure and striving for perfection. Then beating yourself up when you fall short.

Its always needing a schedule or a plan.

Anxiety is that voice inside your head thats saying youll fail.

Its trying to exceed peoples expectations even if youre killing yourself to do so. Anxiety is taking on more than you can handle just so you are distracted and not overthinking something.

Anxiety Is Procrastination Because Youre Paralyzed With Fear Of Failing So You Hold It Off.

Its the triggers that set you off.

Its breaking down in private and crying when youre overwhelmed but no one will ever see that side of you. Anxiety is picking up and trying again because the only thing worse than overcoming other people is overcoming you and your own demons.

Its beating that critical voice that says, you really fucked up. or you should feel awful right now.

Anxiety is the want and the need to control things because it feels like this thing in your life is outside of your control and you have to learn to live with it.

But more than anything anxiety is caring. Its never wanting to hurt someones feelings. Its never wanting to do something wrong. More than anything, its the want and need to simply be accepted and liked. So you try too hard sometimes.

And when you come across friends who begin to understand, they help you through it. Then you realize this might be a battle you face every day but its one you wont have to face alone.

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